A Man's Thoughts

48hrs = Ginuwine's "Last Chance" on repeat.

i feel like i always put myself in the world's most awkwardddd positions and situations that are fun in the moment but which i knowwwwww will not turn out well in the long run aka someone checking into the heartbreak hotel...

most of my recent blogs have been about this one girl ER, she's such a nice girl, i almost feel BAD =/ i thought it was clear that i wasn't looking for a girl, after the way my last relationship of about a YEAR ended, na im STILL hurting from that one... and for a while it was, but ER is really starting to get close. like my mom always said if you go shopping with a girl it's evident it's official lmao truth be told we just came back from shopping and i had an uneasy feeling in my stomach. i hadda resist holding hands by pretending my phone was vibrating in my pocket smh.

and that's 60% because im a good guy and 40% because i wanna be single and mingle for ONCE in my entire life.

i never led the normal teenagers life (girls, parties, girls) because a. i was in hella trouble with the law my whole teenage life b.i had a daughter c. my sports came first

but now it's like, for the first time in my whole life, i just wanna PARTY and get lap dances and get my feels on (esp. if Sidney's with her mom omgggawww) and just accept calls from my Ex telling me to come through and here i go entangling myself with this girl...

It's a Catch 22, cause either way im fucked.