Thursday, June 24, 2010
since i'm going into my last year of school, i have to start looking at grad schools. among my choices are UPenn (current), Temple, Drexel because those are in my area and i used to not wanna be away from my now ex-girlfriend and daughter. but i cannot STAND to be in this area anymore. so i've included 3 NY schools in that. yup, 2hrs away. i'll have to sign custody over to her mother, and i'll visit her as often as possible.
unless ..
Thursday, June 3, 2010
deuces!
we ain't got no future in tomorrow
i'm a "dick"
so it shouldn't be that hard to swallow
Monday, May 31, 2010
i'm growing a set and getting another tattoo
i HATE pain. and i'll admit, i have a low pain threshold
the first two tattoos were out of STRICTLY good causes
(the year 2006 on my tricep in roman numerals to recognize what a lifechanging year that was for me, and Sidney down my side)
this a "Black Light" tattoo and it's very rare that you'll find some place that does it. i found the only reputable place in philly that does and i'm doing it.
It's completely invisible in regular light, but glows in the dark under a black light. The ink is 100% safe, but it's guap-o as hell.
im thinking:
"love. a luxury i can't afford"
"the goal isn't to live forever; it's to create something that will"
"couldn't wait for success, so i went ahead without it"
"don't wish it were easier , wish you were better"
"minor setback for a major comeback"
"Let Go. Let God."
[in NO PARTICULAR ORDER]
-broke up with my girlfriend/baby mama
-my older sister got married
-my brother was sent back to Iraq, and has a baby girl due in june
-i got back with my girlfriend/baby mama
-i finished my junior year at University of Pennsylvania
-took my MCAT exam (medical school entry) and did pretty fucking well
-i cheated for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE
-i turned 21
-joined the DROID nation
-Sidney turned 4
-got promoted as a supervisor at victoria's secret
-Sidney had a hospitalization-required seizure
-i lost 6 family members to the earthquake in haiti
Saturday, October 31, 2009
out with the old, and in with the NEW girl ..
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
"if the bitch doesn't do it to my liking
i make the bitch do it all over again"
pump your brakes...BITCH!? there is not a word in the english language i hate more than the word BITCH when used as an adjective. i'd rather have a white man call me a nigger, than hear a male call a female a BITCH. that's how much that word pisses me off.
but anyway, these kinds of maury episodes really get to me, because in MY situation, my girlfriend doubles as the mother of my child and i would never ever think about doing that to a female like i got a daughter and shit, that just makes me look at females in a whole different light. any nigga that makes his female cry, or doesn't wipe her tears when she does is no friend of mine. you're a coward if you take pleasure in someone else's pain and misery. growing up with so many sisters, aunts, neices like im SO tight that i just watched this and it could possibly be true.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
i just started my junior year at UPenn and it's killing me already.
Calculus is a bitch. first day walking into that class and the teacher started off with a test
..talking about "didn't you guys take this in HS" yea nigga, but that's not the point.
i got a C on that test, calculus is WACK.
Sports Medicine is interesting.
anatomy is a battle to stay awake in.
Biochemistry is boring.
Media & Pop Culture Sociology has nothing to do with my major but it's way too easy to drop.
Graphic Design is the best elective ever.
why are this year's freshman females so BAD? like wtf ..
SidTheKid just started pre-school.
you know how some kids cry on their first day?
nah, she kinda forgot we were even there.
i coped with my brother's suicide well this year.
i never used to call it wat is was, just a death.
but i mean suicide...it is what it is...therapy helps :)
Thursday, September 3, 2009
so he went on larry king live, i myself did not get to watch it
i went to see G.i Joe with my nephew cause he's staying over for a bit.
but i'm listening to it right now.
i sit on BOTH sides of the fence
a) i think he needs to be in jail . idc. i went to jail for the aggrevated assault of a grown ass man who HIT ME FIRST. how come he gets to be free?five years probation? i got 2 andd community service. mike vick killed some dogs, CB almost killed a human....
b) mannnn only two ppl have been affected by this shit. that's CB and Rihanna. he doesn't owe anybody else any kind of apology, he has nothing to prove to you guys, he is not GOD so his actions don't affect you directly OR indirectly.
when it got down to the knitty gritty, CB backs out talking bout "i don't wanna talk about it" probably legally but still.
i'm done with it. sucks for both of them. god bless the USA
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
ALL MY LIFE I'VE WAITED
FLOATING , DREAMING , WISHING
FOR THE DAY WHEN YOU WOULD COME MY WAY
I THOUGHT THAT I COULD TIE YOU DOWN
AND MAKE YOU LOVE JUST ONE
BUT HOW COULD I DO SOMETHING
NO ELSE HAD EVER DONE...
random .. i've been thinking about marriage alot lately y'all.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
i would really like to learn.
btw
A - age : twenty.
B - bedsize : Queen..i will be upgrading by new year's lol
C - chore you hate : feeding the damn dogs. they ALWAYS make a mess
D - dog's name : Crayons, Wiley, Diego, Jersey.......Shockey ran away lol
E - essential start of your day item : coffee, and a text from my homie about how mad he is that last night his girl [insert offense here] . every single morning.
F - favorite color - brown
G - gold or silver - silver
H - height : five feet , ten and a half inches
I - instruments you play(ed) : piano, drums etc..
J - job title : victoria's secret sales associate and KEYHOLDER!
K - kids : lol one devil child. i want 2 more girls when im in med school and then i'm DONE
L - living arrangements : i pay my own $1850 a month rent.
M - moms name : Lauria
N - nicknames : TJ, Teej
O - overnight hospital stay besides birth : over 45 diff surgeries, and other bad things lol
P - pet peeve : people speaking when they're not being spoken to, holding hands, repeating myself
Q - quote from a movie : Coach Carter: I end up taking a road trip to the suburbs where I find my drunk ass point guard on top of Daddy's little princess.
Worm:Actually, I was on the bottom, coach, she was on the top.
R - real shit : when i die, bury me with a glock and a bucket of shells in case these bum ass niggas want drama in hell....JK, i'm going to heaven lol
S - siblings : okay, this might get confusing. my mom and biological father had five kids together. Cameron (r.i.p), Travis 24, Adriana 22, Terrence 22, and me, 20. my father passed, my mother got remarried to a guy who already had four daughters Giselle 23, Mercedes 16, Kiara 16, Meira 17 so that made 9. together, they have Arielle 9, Anthony 7. and they are expecting another girl in november so that makes 11 bros and sisters. i kid you not.
T - time you wake up : 4am , everyday.
U - underwear : boxer briefs
V - vegetables you dislike : peas.
W - ways you run late : i hate being late...
X - xrays youve had : every single part of my body. excluding my ass.
Y - yummy food you make - there's a secret to boxed mac & cheese....
Z - zoo favorites : i like snakes
Sunday, August 16, 2009
it's cliche.
it's the thing to say when you realize that someone is suffering a loss.
but honestly, there's nothing you need to be sorry for.
unless you killed the lost one,
in that case you need not be in my face .. EVER
and you'll never be sorry enough for certain losses.
certain losses aren't even LOSSES anymore, they're just like
"i'm sorry that you don't have a working kidney anymore"
being sorry isn't going to give me a functioning kidney...
...why even remind me my shit is jacked...
or "you're family is in my prayers" . bullshit . will you REALLY think about me
before bed that night? NO lol
a simple "feel better" will suffice.
yep folks, it's THAT TIME OF YEAR :D
august 28th , 2009 . the biggest sob story ever told.
RSVP today!
Monday, August 10, 2009
reasons why i went to therapy
A) i watched my oldest and favorite brother die
b) to deal with all those angry emotions that caused me
to get into a fight a week in High school
C) to "cure" my fear of clowns
okay, to clear that up. when i was 6 years old, my brothers tied me down and forced me to watch the whole movie "IT". i was traumatized, and until i was 16 lol. when i went to therapy, i kinda eased out of it. but i still hate clowns. they make me nervous.
i used to have a problem admitting that i go to therapy, but now it's whatever. we're all grown up in here. i'd rather be in a controlled environment than to be home, depressed and capable of doing shit you'd hear about on the 5 o'clock news.
the man thinks.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Sidney didn't even FLINCH.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
i've seen some bangin ass light skinned girls. i've also seen some halloween type light skinned girls. i've seen some bangin ass dark skinned girls. i've also seen some ugly dark skinned girls.
i've seen some bangin ass hispanic, asian, caucasian girls.
so on and so forth, you get the point.
at first, i think the whole Light skin dark skin thing came about over HAIR. most lighter skinned females tend to have longer hair because they tend to be mixed. most guys like long hair. i like long hair. (shoot me)
ME, personally, honestly, i've never dated an african american female.
my babymama is BrazilianSpanish. the one before her GreekDominican. the one before her GermanPanamanianBlack. before her Philipino. before her FrenchColombian
(yea, i have a thing for exotic females).
point is, neither of yall is better than either of yall.
and light skinned boys get it IN.
the man thinks.
cause i'm NOT a baby daddy. i'm the best dad in the world
and cause i'm Ginuwine's biggest straight male groupie
and that's the direction i wanna go in with my blog
all about analyzing the common female and a male's thoughts towards her.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
instead, i babysat. friday night. TRAGIC.
so Drizzy collapses at his concert in Camden because of a torn ACL
i fuckin FEEL you. worst injury i've ever gone through in my life.
deadass, when i tore mine nov. 07,
i heard it POP and then it hurt so bad, tried to stand up
collapsed. cried my ass off.
the ambulance had to come get me.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
idea stolen from http://meldenisesays.blogspot.com
3rd year at UPenn , one of the ivy leagues. against all odds of course.
applied to Drexel, University of Miami (FL), Florida A&M, Rutgers
accepted to all but, those were on sports scholarships
it's not in the middle of nowhere either
Campus Life?
lot of frats and sororities like u see on tv. um, Akon was here this past spring...
so it can get crazy at times. there are plenty of bars and nightclubs around too
Sunday, July 19, 2009
my ex-girlfriend keeps trying to reappear in my life lol
that may sound a little self-confident
a) she's showing up at my job
i work in philadelphia, she lives in New Jersey ..
less than 10 mins away from a Victoria's Secret ..
but all of a sudden, it's the one i work in lmao
b) everyone of my homie's bangers, she now attends.
i only have 5 homies. ONLY 5. my core.
and they alwys having ppl over.
and when we broke up, she ain't fuck with NONE of those guys
and now she's all showing up and shit
trying to act all friendly to them, ignoring them
c ) she puts herself as in a relationship on facebook,
but no link to the person's name.
lord KNOWS she isn't it no relationship
d) she texts me little smiley faces.
[ :X , :0, :p ]
when i receive em and text .. she doesn't text back ..
great timing too. Jina's in Brazil for more than a MONTH.
help me god
Monday, July 6, 2009
1. because basketball was the ONLY sport i've ever been told i sucked at, i practiced so hard to spite that person, and was an all-league player the next season. i had an ego.
2. instead of porn, i own the world's biggest collection of barney, spongebob, dora and the backyardigans. oh, and the big comfy couch.
3. i drink ensure on a regular basis.
4. i'd actually watch the big comfy couch willingly. it's pretty amusing. especially when she reads the story at the end, those are always good.
5. i thought i wanted to have boys, but after Sidney. i want like 2 more girls and i'm DONE
6. i make my OWN jamaican beef patties
7. i'll never let a girl pay her share for dinner, movies, etc. being independent is cool, but let me feel useful
8. i always wonder what "menstrual cramps" feel like
9. i like the big comfy couch, yet im fuckin' TERRIFIED of clowns...how does that make sense?
10. i obnoxiously yell at the movie screen.
